3/28/97
I'd like to introduce myself and for reasons of privacy I'll call myself #2. Suprisingly the privacy issue isn't from the general public but from the person who raised me (also known as the elder). As time goes on, I hope to add more to this page. Right now this is just my way to maybe work out some of what is going on inside and around me.
I have a sibling whom I will refer to as #1. #1 is fighting through this life the same way I am, having also been raised by the elder. This is not always easy. Together #1 and I seem to do alright. When things get to be too much for me to handle #1 seems to be the only one who can talk any sense into me. For that I am eternally grateful. I like to think that I help #1 in the same way. Basically my life is pretty pathetic. I am old enough to know better but I guess I just don't listen. I hope that makes sense. Someone once told me that I was a misanthrope. I guess they were right. I pretty much hate people. I don't really have any use for most of them except #1 and a very, very select few. I think the only reason I can deal with them is that they don't demand anything of me. When you start doing that we develop a major problem. This in itself is a problem, I know that but don't seem to want to change it. Oh well. Life goes on. One of the few things that I really enjoy are pictures. I have tons of pictures in my house. Anything that catches my eye. This is a constant source of intense irritation to the elder which in my warped world actually makes it all the more fun. Most of the pictures you will see here reflect my feelings about me, #1, the elder, my home life and just my growing up. Bear with me the pictures will be coming soon. Unfortunately as much as I dislike life, I do have to adhere to the rules of society. You know, mundane things like work.
So for now I'll go, but I be back soon. And often for I have no life, therefore plenty of time to do this. See you soon.
Yours Truly,
#2
3/28/97
To anyone who cares to listen, mostly to myself. I am #1. I have just finished reading my sibling's entry for the first time. Everything you see is true. The Elder has just caused possibly the worst few days of our lives. the urge to simply erradicate the Elder from our lives is the strongest feeling I've had in recent memory. Unfortunately, as #2 pointed out, I still give the Elder the respect of a capital beginning. Something inside of me is more afraid of the consequences than fearful of not surviving. Therein lies the true basis of my personal neurosis. I guess until I can conquer that, I'll just have to keep depending on the support of #2 to get me through. Until such time, this is probably the last you will hear from me. Thank you for listening,
#1